Ambroses Songs

[Ambrose]

Here I'll share my songs, which most of them really vary, so if you don't like one, then maybe you'll like a different one!
Sadly, I had to reset my laptop, and I used skype to send the files to myself, but for some reason skype deleted all of them, so all these are pretty much brand new.


Song 1- Little girl- Finished

There's a little girl who's depressed, Suicidal
It hurt her to make a real smile, Said trying wasn't worth her while
She would do anything for anyone, She would walk the extra mile
No one understood how she did it, Never understood how she was stable with her lifestyle
So i'm going to tell you her story
it may be sad but don't close your eyes
Her dad was busted for weed
So him and her momma broke up, Her momma started making herself bleed
Keep in mind this little girl is five years old
But at eight her dad moved away into his own home
So she had to stay with her grandmother
But she's insane
So bad that this little girl got headaches
So she cut herself like her momma did before her
she told her friend a few months later, But they used that against her
Now she feels like the whole school knows what she does
so she walks around with a fake smile
But when she's all alone her head is singin'

Just do it, no one well miss you
They're all here to dis you
You aren't strong enough to do it anyway
So just pick up that gun, rope, and blade
So you don't have to live through another day
Little girl, no one likes you
But no one knows what you've been through
So look down, pick up the blade, and that'll have to make do
Can't live through the pain of another day
So cut yourself with your beloved blade
The scar well never quite fade

No one quite understands her, No one understands her taste
No one understands her music, No one understands her face
But this is her fate, And She has no faith
So if you're reading this, this is her suicide note to you
Because she's always been sad, But you never knew
It's not your fault, and I don't lie
It's her fault for keeping the pain inside
But this is her break through
Even though she meant nothing to you
You were her go to
You'll never understand how much you meant to her
But now she must die, And bleed out red
As she thinks about it, All the words you said
She starts to sing this song in her nearly unconcious head

Just do it, no one well miss you
They're all here to dis you
You aren't strong enough to do it anyway
So just pick up that gun, rope, and blade
So you don't have to live through another day
Little girl, no one likes you
But no one knows what you've been through
So look down, pick up the blade, and that'll have to make do
Can't live through the pain of another day
So cut yourself with your beloved blade
The scar well never quite fade

Well she's going to go, She'll see you in the afterlife
She wants you to stay here and keep dry eyes
Keep everyone happy
You should all stay alive
You're all worth it
her on the other hand
well she doesn't feel perfect
When she looks in the mirror, She doesn't see what you see
She has body dysmorphia and depression, you see
She has anxiety and asthma
She wishes she could run away from it all
Maybe if she moved to Nebraska
She does in her head, Everyday she flees
When someone makes her talk to a stranger
all she can do is freeze
Because anxiety eats her up, she wishes you could see
Maybe if you paid attention
But it seems that's beyond your comprehension
This Little girl, Her name is no longer unknown
Because that little girls name is me
You never helped me, never stood by my side
Even when everyday I went home to cry
But its time to go, I've went on long enough
Know that none of this story is made up
Yes, it's all true

Unnamed song- Just started

Plastered on fake smile
hair running down her face
as she watched water drip drop from her window pane
this little girl thought she was insane
Maybe phsycotic
But it wasn't obvious
most people were oblivious
to the fact that she lived like this
she knew she was crazy
just hated to admit it
didn't want to have to live with people knowing it

Unnamed song- Just started

Time to pick up this pen
and try to write again
Through the pain
But when you ask me to rap what i just wrote
My mouth shuts air tight
My lip is always there, so thats what i bite
Center stage gives me fright
I never like to be in the spotlight
just because im a white girl
im suppose to put on a dress
and give it a whirl
suppose to love starbucks
Im not suppose to like rap
Not suppose to be into that
Not suppose to be able to talk fast

But who knows
Maybe now you're rethinking what i can do
Maybe now i'm capable of more than what you first knew
Oh what? Am I talking too fast?
Do you need a lyric video on youtube?
Oh thats a shame boo
You just gave a point to me
but im the opposing team
So what are you going to do?

Guardian Angel- Just started

hush little baby
don't make a sound
im sorry he went so soon
but please put the blade down
dont make a cut
dont say a word
we'll be home soon
that im sure
im the guardian angel
I heard you call my name
I heard your cries
it'll be all right
I'll tuck you in tight
make sure your safe
even when everyone else lost their faith
please don't make this day your last
because the past is the past
and no more than that
Im you're guardian angel
because my past is the same

The Hearts- Just started (Finished but i may add more)

Three hearts beating

Eye lids closing

even if he wasn't gone just yet

Heart beat slowing

head tilting back

in his sleep

is where his last breath is at

Two hearts beating

the last needed a rest

but he was worn and weary of life

by death

All he did is sleep

so all i did is weep

but i followed what he did

and all i did is dream

days and days in my room

all wasted by sleep

All i could think

is how i never got the chance to say goodbye

I never said i love you

I never said i care

Heart hallow

yet the inside filled with despair

A year later

a puppy was born

long and leggy for sure

Huge and muscular

Clumsy and stubborn

just like the old man

who's heart has never spoken

He rised again

is what i always said

Playful and frolicing

no longer hurting

For his soul didn't die just yet

His soul lived strong

but his old body had its beating

So he was given a new one

without a scratch on it

He loves his new body

Soon it'll be worn

and he'll leave us again

with a wise, wise soul